Sunday, November 29, 2009

I am an African

I owe my being to the hills and the valleys, the mountains and the glades, the rivers, the deserts, the trees, the flowers, the seas and the ever-changing seasons that define the face of our native land.

My body has frozen in our frosts and in our latter day snows. It has thawed in the warmth of our sunshine and melted in the heat of the midday sun. The crack and the rumble of the summer thunders, lashed by startling lightening, have been a cause both of trembling and of hope.

The fragrances of nature have been as pleasant to us as the sight of the wild blooms of the citizens of the veld.

The dramatic shapes of the Drakensberg, the soil-coloured waters of the Lekoa, iGqili noThukela, and the sands of the Kgalagadi, have all been panels of the set on the natural stage on which we act out the foolish deeds of the theatre of our day.

At times, and in fear, I have wondered whether I should concede equal citizenship of our country to the leopard and the lion, the elephant and the springbok, the hyena, the black mamba and the pestilential mosquito.

A human presence among all these, a feature on the face of our native land thus defined, I know that none dare challenge me when I say - I am an African!

I owe my being to the Khoi and the San whose desolate souls haunt the great expanses of the beautiful Cape - they who fell victim to the most merciless genocide our native land has ever seen, they who were the first to lose their lives in the struggle to defend our freedom and dependence and they who, as a people, perished in the result.

Today, as a country, we keep an audible silence about these ancestors of the generations that live, fearful to admit the horror of a former deed, seeking to obliterate from our memories a cruel occurrence which, in its remembering, should teach us not and never to be inhuman again.

I am formed of the migrants who left Europe to find a new home on our native land. Whatever their own actions, they remain still, part of me.

In my veins courses the blood of the Malay slaves who came from the East. Their proud dignity informs my bearing, their culture a part of my essence. The stripes they bore on their bodies from the lash of the slave master are a reminder embossed on my consciousness of what should not be done.

I am the grandchild of the warrior men and women that Hintsa and Sekhukhune led, the patriots that Cetshwayo and Mphephu took to battle, the soldiers Moshoeshoe and Ngungunyane taught never to dishonour the cause of freedom.

My mind and my knowledge of myself is formed by the victories that are the jewels in our African crown, the victories we earned from Isandhlwana to Khartoum, as Ethiopians and as the Ashanti of Ghana, as the Berbers of the desert.

I am the grandchild who lays fresh flowers on the Boer graves at St Helena and the Bahamas, who sees in the mind's eye and suffers the suffering of a simple peasant folk, death, concentration camps, destroyed homesteads, a dream in ruins.

I am the child of Nongqause. I am he who made it possible to trade in the world markets in diamonds, in gold, in the same food for which my stomach yearns.

I come of those who were transported from India and China, whose being resided in the fact, solely, that they were able to provide physical labour, who taught me that we could both be at home and be foreign, who taught me that human existence itself demanded that freedom was a necessary condition for that human existence.

Being part of all these people, and in the knowledge that none dare contest that assertion, I shall claim that - I am an African.


Monday, April 07, 2008

Escaping the black box

A 50 year old woman that was abused at the age of 10, will never forget that moment when her father robbed her of her dignity. Leaving her with deep wounds that she wishes time will heal, yet cringes at the memory thereof….. She let it control her so much that she missed the opportunity to experience the magic of love and giving a man the opportunity to treat her like a queen. She died, unloved, burying resentment and scars of the past with her.

Just like that woman, are we allowing South Africa to slowly die, unloved, with unleashed potential, the country alive with possibility, because we are letting the past become a walking shadow everyday through our racist thinking?

Am I insensitive to the fact that my forefathers had been economically and socially suppressed so a particular race can be empowered?
Am I insensitive to communities being torn apart by the group areas act, where those who are homeless are subjected to living in tin homes 14 years later?
How can anyone be insensitive to the suffering of another?

We cannot deny the footprints of Apartheid that still exist today, but are we going to allow it to haunt us for generations to come and stagnate? Looking back, rather than pressing forward to a better South Africa for ALL, red, yellow, blue, white, black?

Is unemployment, lack of education, crime, insufficient health facilities and HIV/AIDS (but to mention a few), challenges related to a particular colour of people or does it to relate to humanity?

The call I make to you is to escape the black box thinking that I am owed something because of the past, subjecting others to our prejudices because they the same colour as the past oppressors. Issues of colour seem to be menial to the blaring problems set before us today. Even apartheid was not overcome through using the same weapon of racism, but through people working together in unity.

What is the colour of this country we want to reflect? Is it this of pigmentation or of a rainbow nation united to fight the conquerable giants of our time?

Cheryl-Lynn Freeman
PS: Inspired by Obama’s speech (A More Perfect Union) on race
(check it out on YOUTUBE, it will transform your thinking)

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Jealous Kind

I built another temple to a stranger

I gave away my heart to the rushing wind

I set my course to run right into danger

Sought the company of fools instead of friends


You know I've been unfaithful

Lovers in line

While you're turning over tables

With the rage of a jealous kind

I chose the gallows to the aisle

Thought that love would never find

Haning ropes will never keep you

And your love of a jealous kind

Love of a jealous kind


Tryin' to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading

For solace in the shift of the sinking sand

I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar

Than be broken by a lover I don't understand

'Cause I don't understand


One hundred other lovers, more, one hunderd other altars

If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace

And love that shames the wise, betrays the heart's deceit and lies

And breaks the back of foolish pride


Jars of Clay

from album: Who We Are Instead