'lonely and deserted'

MY 'LONELY & DESERTED COMPANION THIS MORNING'

I am sure by now you have once in your lifetime experienced some form of sleepless night ordea. Be it you stressed over something specific in your mind, overly excited by prospects for the future, maybe you have too much caffeine flowing through your veins and more likely you madly in love with someone and all your head is filled with is that one mortal that makes your heart pound louder than the djembe drums. Well it is 2:08hrs Wednesday morning and I am struggling to sleep. I am feeling slightly sickish for lack of a better term to describe it, so 'la la land' seems but a distant dream at this moment. What better way to pass the time than making an entry into, as someone put it, my 'lonely and deserted' blog.

The strangest universal occurrence whenever someone is struggling to sleep is to go straight into the kitchen and make themselves some 'killer sandwich' and go straight in front of the television set hoping you will get bored by late night CNN news and slowly drift to sleep. In my case I have done the former and almost the latter although of course I am sitting in front of a computer and typing some 'ob' entry of which I have no idea were is going to.

Another occurrence waking up in the middle of the night is you tend to do things you otherwise do not have enough time to do during the day. Like say read a devotional from your favorite website (www.jesusfreakshideout.com). However you also tend to see your mind drifting to some other important elements of your life, like say for example: thinking of your 'super gorgeous amazing girlfriend'. Now I have fell into both those two categories this morning and I will share briefly on both of them.

Starting with the 'devotional' element. I have just read a devotional titled:"The Driver's Seat". It talks of allowing God to be the main dude controlling your life at all times as opposed to you always making the decisions and only trying to get him to validate all nonsensical decision you have already made. As the theme verse speaks for its self: "Anyone who intends to come with Me has to let Me lead. You're not in the driver's seat--I am." Luke 9:23 MSG I was left in no doubt that at times I have constantly taking the lord off the drivers seat and like a learner driver without an instructor. I have crashed into objects around me and afterwards I still have the nerve to blame my instructor for my waywardness........ Jesus said, "I do nothing without consulting the Father." (John 5:30 NLT) The Amplified translation makes the Savior's intentions even clearer by stating: "I do not seek or consult My own will [I have no desire to do what is pleasing to Myself, My own aim, My own purpose] but only the will and pleasure of the Father Who sent Me....So I am left with no doubt that we at all times need to be aware of the driver in the front seat before the vehicle is in motion. So that is my devotion moment this morning.

Last in relation to thoughts this morning on my 'super amazing gorgeous girlfriend' I can only say I greatly appreciate her for being part of my life and I am so grateful that she keeps my arrogance in check at all time.

As for my my 'lonely and deserted' blog. I will try to pay attention to you as often as I can. Now I need to go and try to get a VISA to la la land otherwise I am in big trouble staying awake tomorrow morning during working hours.

KeEp iT tIght 4rEaL

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